The Heart Wrenching Moment

Because I have no where else to let it all out without being concerned of someone or another's misunderstanding, here I am posting at such a timely hour.

Double combo in a day, both giving me to experience the same amount of sadness so much to the extend that I had to gasp for a breath. Two different groups of people I thought, but I was wrong. Gave my best performance but still people wanted more than I could give, expecting so high standards, of the giving me.

Not just that, people are just full of themselves. Ultimately living for the good of themselves. Are there no one else working to earn a living too? So many individual stories to consider, so many yearning for my help, who to please, who to give, right to you, wrong to another. But what are these to me, who understands and weigh all these at on glance? Because of your non-understanding, you judge me wrong, you judge me bias. Not just did you stepped on the grace I've been giving to you, you stepped over me, straight to someone who could give pressure onto my decision.

Honestly you think it's for the good of yourself, but did you consider others?

Oh Lord, help me to love like You. Your love so great, I feel so crippled so incapable to give it out like You did. How did you manage to deal with all these heart wrenching moments, I'm thinking I never want to know so I won't have to live it out. How selfish of me I may say, but just let me stay so self-centred, till I cry my night to sleep.

A well deserved break

A trip that better forged our friendship, a well deserved break from work itself. A trip filled with ups and downs but at the end of the day it all went well. 

The fight over to Phuket was filled with crying toddlers and panicking Mums trying all ways to calm their child down. Followed by a welcome gift we found by the bed, thousands of bedbugs waiting to begin life. Boy was it a terror, more than just a shiver down the spine. Nevertheless, God's providence, we got a good deal at a resort nearer to the beach and street shops for night entertainment. What a long day we had and both of us knocked out within minutes our heads rested on the soft pillow. 

Following day was no lesser than happening. First experience of sunning by the beach flaunting my gifts from God, but got too excited and forgot about sunblock. But what's a beach holiday without any sunburns? The Singaporean us being slaves to our phones came of good use when a young boy injured himself by the beach. Google translate connected those in need of help and those trying to help. 

What's a holiday without shopping? So we did, on the last day explored the town part oh the island and surprised I am that there's quite a cafe trend there too! The rest of the day was spent sharing more about each other, our downs and ups, sadness and happiness, regrets and hope.

Never did I thought I'll gain such a friend in common as strong headed and career focused. I thank God for you. 

Off days so worth it

Love it how we have the same off day, how we support each other, how you find the importance of my existence in your life. Best-est of friend we are. So looking forward to our birthday stay-cation.

Side note, just a few more months and it's gonna be a year since I started working with CBG/IGC. Things' been good, met great people, growing strong and well. Working hard but still yearning for that affirmation that I'm doing well. Other than that, looking forward to the short get away (Puket)! Whee~

Good bye 2014 // Hello 2015

2014 have been another year of ups and downs, stepping into yet another stage of my life, experiencing a whole lot of new things. Ending the year with many celebrations with the usual gang and with new people I've met.

 

First of all, I'm thankful for the job I have now, the people I got to know and am working well with. It have not been an easy start but it definitely changed me much. With God's strength, I've learn to be a better person handling expectations. Thank God for awesome bosses and colleagues-turn-friends. Work would have been a chore if not for them.

 

Grew real close to a few whom gave me lots of advices along the way, helping me grow into being a better Supervisor. Thank God for them.

Not forgetting my second family. It has definitely been a tough year for us, but things happened that made us learn to love and cherish each other more, not taking each other for granted.

 

 

Another lesson learned this year, through time and when each of us gets busy with our own stages of life, friends come and go, but only those true to you will stay no matter what. Even with just a simple text of concern make a whole lot of differences. Not that we turn into enemies, but just time made us drift away. My choice, their choice, no one to blame.

 

My happy pills, enough said. When ever we gather, good food gathers too. Yumz!

 

Last and the most important, my Family. May God continue looking after us and let this bundle of joy grow in god's love.

 

With this, good bye 2014 you've taught me many life lessons, and hello 2015 let's be good to each other.