Because I have no where else to let it all out without being concerned of someone or another's misunderstanding, here I am posting at such a timely hour.
Double combo in a day, both giving me to experience the same amount of sadness so much to the extend that I had to gasp for a breath. Two different groups of people I thought, but I was wrong. Gave my best performance but still people wanted more than I could give, expecting so high standards, of the giving me.
Not just that, people are just full of themselves. Ultimately living for the good of themselves. Are there no one else working to earn a living too? So many individual stories to consider, so many yearning for my help, who to please, who to give, right to you, wrong to another. But what are these to me, who understands and weigh all these at on glance? Because of your non-understanding, you judge me wrong, you judge me bias. Not just did you stepped on the grace I've been giving to you, you stepped over me, straight to someone who could give pressure onto my decision.
Honestly you think it's for the good of yourself, but did you consider others?
Oh Lord, help me to love like You. Your love so great, I feel so crippled so incapable to give it out like You did. How did you manage to deal with all these heart wrenching moments, I'm thinking I never want to know so I won't have to live it out. How selfish of me I may say, but just let me stay so self-centred, till I cry my night to sleep.
