watched harry potter at last! (: and B didn't sleep at all through out and he even said it was not bad! HAHAHA! oh oh, and if i'm not wrong, i saw 3 monks watching harry potter too! HAHA! monks now a days are also so catching up with everything. LOL!

starting morning shift tml for the whole of dec. hope work and everything goes well!

dear Lord please tell me what your plans are for me.

很快的今年只剩一个多月就过了一年了。明年本人21岁了，是该开始起步新的路程了。我已经是大概决定该改变的事了～希望事情都能照我和鸿昌心想的顺利的进行。但当然不要忘记所有都是以上帝时间的安排。

老爸说明年我能和鸿昌和我们的朋友一起去云顶玩几天，希望真的能实现。明年也会有打算一家人算出国旅行。但是现在有些问起浮现，不知会怎么办。但真的希望上帝能为我们做最好的打算让我们大家能有个机会一起出国放松放松一下。

一切的一切就只能恒妾的祷告，让上帝带领我们吧！

烦烦烦烦烦！！！！讨厌讨厌讨厌讨厌讨厌！！！！

所发生的种种事情我谁都不能讲，谁都不能给我诉苦。只能在夜里一个人像上帝诉苦着泪流满面的睡着。我现在生活过得很不好很幸苦，一切都得自己承担自己抗，太多事情没人明白没人了解。重点是，不可以说。

因为一些事的发生，给我觉得自己好蠢，好讨厌那时感情化的选择。但是因为模些自己的原因，以现在目前的状况我无法放弃。

家里，感情，工作，都是此刻我感到无形的压力的原因。有谁能来和我交换一天的生活吗？我好想和所有人，事，物都隔离几天给我休息喘口气。我真的好累好累好累。。。。。什么都不可以说，否则后果非常难堪。。

-让爱传出去-

爱是看不见的语言
爱是摸不到的感觉
爱是我们小小的心愿
希望你平安快乐永远

爱是仰着头的喜悦
爱是说不出的感谢
爱是每天都付出一点点
双手合十不在乎考验

让爱传出去 它像阳光温暖我和你
不管有多遥远 总有到的那一天
让爱传出去 那前方漫漫人生路
有你的祝福 没有过不去的苦

life is getting so rubbish now. everyone and everything is full of rubbish and "bullshit" like someone whom i know loves using. (such crude words!) we are human who have feelings you know. and the 3rd party listening usually knows the best.

i just don understand why even after so many years someone still likes to force their point of view into other people's brain. like how some people thinks that i hava a bad attitude of answering her and then she answer back rudely because i did it first. and then going to report to my boyfriend about my bad doings. and in the end he come and scold me just because of what she says! wth la~

she always thinks that other people is speaking with attitude to her and i seriousely cannot take it la! the worst thing is she ALWAYS NEVER FAIL to complain to my boyfriend during work when i'm not around about my "bad" doings which is practically her own stupid misunderstanding which i can't be bothered about her.

her attitude is no where good either. FULL OF RUBBISH! really cannot take it la! damn irritaing about her. make me wanna curse and swear at her.

and then at work already like battle field must watch out of sudden bombing or sudden change of wether to thumder storm. then come home continue ah whatever la. super irritated about everything. then the stupid boyfriend everything also my fault when people not .......ah F*** la. can't be botherd to type anymore.

in a very bad mood now!

"It makes no sense without even knowing, I’m seeing only you.

Even though I try to hate you, thought I try so hard I just can’t hide it.

I shouldn’t, but I keep wanting. Should I tell you I’ve fallen for you?

Even when I dream it’s only you. I know it makes no sense but I love you."